Author Topic: Holiday Blues [Kyoko/Open] (Read 1621 times)

Haley Russell · « **on:** December 17, 2023, 03:16:40 pm »

It was a cold and snowy day outside, and everyone was bustling in the city, trying to buy gifts for their loved ones for the holidays. Kaoru, on the other hand, was not one of these people. He felt the opposite of the many happy people who were with friends, family, and a partner—things he didn't have. He had family, but his parents could only do so much. He didn't know what it was like to have REAL friends. Well, he could count Tsubasa as a "friend", but found him to be strange and can't take him seriously or believe anything he says as the cycle goes between them. He keeps waiting for him to get tired of him and finally leaves. It hasn't happened yet, but he's not putting it past him. The dark-haired young man was just counting down the days of when that would happen, at least so his brain could tell him, 'See? I told you so.". As for why he was outside today? Simple. He wanted to get away from the Amestia Inn.

They were busy focusing so much on decorating and setting up for a Christmas Party for the long-term residents and temporary guests living there, and Kaoru was just not in a holiday mood. He didn't want to get involved in decorating and pretending that people actually cared he existed. He lived there. He had no connections or relationships of any kind with the people who stayed there. It was just like university. He was alone there and is alone when he is in his room. It was too cold to be out, but it was better than hearing Christmas music playing while decorations and such were being put up. They all received notice of a Secret Santa contest, except instead of picking out something for a specific person, they would all buy gifts and put them under the tree, and people could pick one at random. That didn't sound like fun at all. Not in his mind. Being in the city wasn't better since people were out shopping or eating out at the nearby restaurants. The only place Kaoru felt like he could get peace of mind was at the local docks.

They weren't closed off during the winter as long as there were no incidents. He did remember hearing about a murder over two years ago happening. Since the murder didn't happen specifically at the docks, there were warning signs put up and security cameras to prevent further incidents from happening. Thus, that's where he went, to the docks. His mood didn't change when he arrived there, his hands tucked away firmly in his coat pockets. He simply stood there, gazing out at the water while feeling depressed and all over the place. Nothing was getting better for him. Neither medication nor therapy was working. Kaoru just felt like he was existing without feeling anything. He hated feeling this way. He wanted to feel like a person again but didn't know how to go about doing that. He could talk about everything he felt, but what good was it doing him? Not a thing. Thinking that, he couldn't help but laugh bitterly to himself. The next thing he knew, tears were falling down the sides of his face. These were clearly not tears of joy. There was too much hurt in his heart and eyes to feel happy about anything or anyone.

"What is there to be happy about?" Kaoru said out loud. He removed his hands out if his pockets, forming them into fists at his sides. He stopped laughing but his expression changed to that of sudden anger as he glared out at the open dark water. "Why!?" he began to shout angrily. "Why does everyone around me get to be happy!? Why am I judged for wanting ...!" Kaoru couldn't finish what he said as he couldn't hold back his tears any longer and started crying out loud. "I hate this!" he shouted once more. Lucky for him, he was alone. If he wasn't, he knew he'd be stared at and judged by everyone who was watching and listening to him. He did not want to deal with that.

guest107 · « **Reply #1 on:** December 24, 2023, 08:28:36 am »

Snow often represented two sides of a single coin. One side represented beauty as it made Mother Natures creations to stand out and looked truly wonderful, while the other represented a beast as it can be slippery outside, thus injury can be possible. Another thing about the white fluffiness of the white substance is that it also signals fun and laughter as people can do things to bring them joy. Snow angels can be made, sleds can be used and snow balls can be created for throwing at friends or family.

Today was a day for warm clothes as it was snowing outside, but it did not stop Kyoko from going out and do some much needed shopping for her mom. Garbed in winter clothing, she marched onwards happily, with her hands duck into her coat pockets, her red scarf wrapped around her neck, with a smile on her face, she decided to take a short cut to the supermarket which was mentioned to the teenager back at school, but sadly poor Kyoko was not that smart and thus she fell for an obvious trick, for soon she came across the dock area of the city.

Usually this place was to unload cargo from ships big or small, or the dockings of these different sized vessels, but wondering why she came here, the girl simply shrugged and got out her mobile phone, to take a selfie of the place, after all it was her first time coming to this place. Making sure the picture was in the right spot, the girl smirked and held out her fingers into a V shape as it took a photo. Soon though she heard someone shout out, making the cords of curiosity pull her towards the direction of where the shouting came from. Heading towards it she spotted a teenage boy looking over at the realm of water, as Kyoko kept a smile on her face and called out to the stranger. “Hey what’s up?”

Haley Russell · « **Reply #2 on:** December 24, 2023, 09:01:03 am »

Despite Kaoru currently wrapped up in his own thoughts and emotions, there was no ignoring the sounds of a voice coming from behind him which startled him, causing him to turn around with a look of surprise since he knew for sure he was alone. When and where did this girl come from that wasn't here originally? She wasn't close by him but close enough to where he could hear her but not so far away where he couldn't see her either. Kaoru could see her very clearly. He couldn't help but give her a dumbfounded look as she just spoke to him so casually. He didn't like it. They didn't know each other so why was she trying to be so friendly with him? Turning back around, he quickly used the sleeve of his jacket to dry his tear-stained face. 'Maybe she didn't notice,' he thought, sniffling. He then shoved his hands inside the pockets of his jacket, not turning to face her. Normally, he would shout at anyone he didn't know who tried to approach him but seeing that girl, he didn't have it in him to do it.

Probably because she was clearly a high school student based on her appearance. She looked way too young to be a university student like himself. Thinking that, it only made him a little depressed remembering his time in high school briefly. If he had the chance to go back in time and make it so that he never met his ex, he would. Then he wouldn't be dealing with the internal emotional and mental pain from that time. No doubt, his ex was happy with someone new. He never tried to reach out to him when they broke up and his ex didn't do the same. So, it was clear for a long time they were done with one another. He didn't even have feelings for him anymore. Kaoru felt nothing but anger towards him. He talked enough about this with his therapist and the strange young man who calls himself his friend, Tsubasa. He didn't want to burden anyone else with his past. Certainly not some high school kid. Kaoru continued to stand there gazing out at the water as his breath could be seen in the cold air.

guest107 · « **Reply #3 on:** December 26, 2023, 10:15:42 am »

Being outside in this chilly weather was enough to make Kyoko feel gleeful. Snow was fun to look at it, at its white fluffiness began to pelt down from the heavens. Deep down the girl just wanted to make snow angels forever, which remind her to make her back in her garden and of course build a snow man. Thankfully her winter outfit did its best to keep the lass warm and cosy from the coldness in the air.

Coats was a must have in this type of weather, and luckily her puffy jacket, her warmest mid length skirt, and boots, followed by a scarf and hat, made up her ensemble. Granted the skirt looked similar to her school uniform skirt, but it was warmer. Sadly there was no response coming from the stranger. Howevever Kyo had an idea as she quietly walked closer and closer to the person in front of her and unleashed a shout when she got closer to them. “HEEEELLLLLOOOO??”.

Haley Russell · « **Reply #4 on:** December 29, 2023, 07:57:12 pm »

'This girl...' The hint didn't seem to be taken that Kaoru was deliberately ignoring her, yet she proceeded to approach him anyway, blocking his view of the sea while shouting 'Hello' in his face. Kaoru's annoyance was evident as a vein appeared on his left temple. She didn't know it, but he could easily push her ass into the water if he wanted to. He was trying not to have a violent outburst and cause a scene. He didn't like himself when he got like that. Still, this girl was asking for it. He didn't understand why she was being so persistent in getting his attention. She seemed to not have taken notice of him crying and shouting earlier as she didn't bring it up, only obnoxiously saying hello to him. Kaoru couldn't help but wonder if she had a couple of screws loose herself. He wanted to be left alone, and she just didn't seem to understand that.

"Tch." This was Kaoru's response as he glared at her, his expression showing that he wasn't interested in some high school girl's antics. "Not interested. Go away, brat," he finally spoke up, his tone also showing how annoyed he was. This girl couldn't have been THAT bored that she had to bother a random stranger she didn't know. And even if she was, what made her think he was obligated to even entertain her? He was now regretting that he even came outside. He only did so because he just couldn't take the festiveness that was engulfed around the inn with guests and permanent residents. It felt suffocating. He was out here to get away from it all. Now, he was being bothered by some girl he didn't know. If it was just to be annoying, he was going to read her good for it. There was nothing she could say that would be remotely interesting to him. But he kept his eyes on her, narrowing them as he waited for her to either go away or respond.